3: Where was I successful?

MERRY CHRISTMAS!  HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE EVERYWHERE!  WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY!

Having said that, it is quiet in the house right now.  My husband is still asleep and my daughter is playing a video game while waiting for dad to get up.  There is a gentle snow falling outside and I don't mind it at all despite the fact that I live in a climate where we are not supposed to be getting this kind of snow.  I am sure this is just the Universe's way of saying, "Suprise!  You never know what is going to happen next so kick back and enjoy it."  :) 

Where was I successful in 2008.  Now this question brings interesting thoughts and feelings to the forefront.  Part of me says that I have not been successful at anything.  Another part of me says that I have been successful at pretty much everything.  Duality is certainly up front and centre on this issue.  I find it really interesting that I am unable to describe what success means to me, what it looks like or feels like, or would look like or feel like so I it is pretty hard for me to determine where I was successful this year.

I'll be back....gotta do some research on this one.


Back soon wonderful beings.  :)

Part 2:

It is many hours later and I have done some much needed research, inner and outer,  on the idea of success.  The first place I went to was the dictionary and this is what I found.

SUCCEED:
-to accomplish what is attempted or intended
-to happen or terminate according to desire;turn out successfully:have the desired result
-to thrive, prosper, grow, or the like

SUCCESS:
-the acheivement of something, desired, planned, or attempted
-the gaining of fame or prosperity
-the extent of such gain
-one that is successful=the plan was a success
-Obsolete- A result or outcome-  (now, this one I am still trying to wrap my head around, and am sensing that once success is acheived, the goal itself becomes obsolete and is the most desired outcome of any goal....but. like Scarlett O'Hara, I can't think about that right now....I'll think about it tomorrow.

and then I went to get the following synonyms:

-accomplishment, acheivement, advance, arrival, ascendancy, attainment, benefit, big hit, consumation, fruition, progress, prosperity, realization, triumph, victory, win

There were a number of other synonyms but I only chose the ones that really resonated with me.   So, based on my simple research, everything I did was successful to some extent because I am quite sure that the undesirable actions generated the desired outcome at some level, otherwise, I would not have done them.

However, if I look at the definition "the acheivement of something, desired, planned, or attempted", I admit to having a very small list to present. 

1:  I said no when it was difficult to do so.
2:  I planted and nurtured my garden to the best of my beginners ability.
3:  I maintained my weight loss of 2007 and did not gain increase any dress sizes.
4:  I manifested a lovely antique bed for my daughter just by trusting it would come.
5:  I am still here to keep working on it.

That is about it.  I am seeing the benefit of answering these questions because I am really looking at what kind of energy is present in my life.  It is also helping me to take a hard look at the choices I have made in 2008, and how putting off making a choice and creating a plan to make the need to make the choice obsolete ( big smile) is indeed a choice.  Free will to abdicate actively excercising free will.  Apathy is choice that rings louder than any other choice.

I did not write down any real goals for 2008 that I actively persued.  I have exactly the same things on my "to acheive" list for 2009 that I had on my "new millenium" list.  I am 8 years older and haven't done what I wanted to do in 2000.  I hadn't really looked at this under a bright light before.  I believe I know where my vague feeling of "hopelessness" eminates from.  It is so easy to get lost and then remain lost without a map leading to the treasure everybody is looking for.

I intend to present a very different list when answering next year because I will have some written goals to make obsolete this time next year.  However, I strongly intend to have one the same:   I am still here!

Michelle, if you are reading this work, I wonder, did you know the power of these simple questions?

Thank you all for being.